~Gargoyle~

GARGOYLE!!! Sounds eerie yeah... Well, its this book I've been reading and I find the story very interesting as inside the main story, there are other small stories which is with moral issues and examples on different kinds of love.... As fren, as lover, as parent, as enemy.. (ok as enemy just din sound fancy.. cheh!) So, this is like the really old old version of Beauty & The Beast but its just that it has a better story line..... I should say that Andrew Davinson has done a great job wif this high level of imagination....

By reading the book, u will know he has done his homework to make this book a success and to call itself International Bestseller...

The story revolves around 12th century about this ex-nun Marianne Angel.... Who came back, can't really consider reborn but bf from the 12th century was reborn on the 20th century who was a porn star... He met with an accident and got himself all burnt and was in a hospital where Marianne was admitted over some mental issues.... Its a beautiful love, magic, imaginary, heart breaking story.... I cried over some of the pages and laughed over most of the pages as well.... Well for the ending, i think its better u read it urself rather than i give the review here.... I just don't wish to spoil the whole fun thing.... So for all those who enter here, there is no need to abandon hope. Lessons are learned, love is found, spirits are restored and faith is revealed.

A lil bit about the Author, Andrew Davidson.....

Andrew Davidson was born in Pinawa, Manitoba (Canada) on April 12 1969(Mind u, same date and month as me.... I so adore this guy rite now!!! Damn!!!) and graduated in 1995 from the University of British Columbia with a B.A. in English literature. He has worked as a teacher in Japan, where he has lived on and off, and as a writer of English lessons for Japanese Web sites. The Gargoyle, the product of seven years' worth of research and composition, is his first book. Davidson lives in Winnipeg, Manitoba.

*Currently my level of sexcitement is just so unbareble..... I'm desperately needed help!!! Muahahahaha*

I Hate Jealousy!!!!

Don't really know how to start it but its all about the Big 'J' which stands for Jealous/Jealousy.... I hate it when I get that feeling.... Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, such as a relationship, friendship, or love... Jealousy often consists of a combination of emotions such as anger, sadness, and disgusted... Jealousy differs from envy in that jealousy is about something one has and is afraid of losing, while envy refers to something one does not have and either wants to acquire or to prevent another from acquiring....

What happens is that when u get jealous, it misleads u to many stupid things like starvation, hurting urself and so forth.... I hate that.... I being very honest in my blog here, i do get jealous quite often but what i personally feel is that, its good to get jealous, as a way to express your love for someone.... Its a bad way of showing how u feel about the person thou.... In fact, you can even see it in most of the movies shown in cinemas..... Jealousy is everywhere, its just how you control it and what you do about it.....

Feelings.......

What is feelings? Do you need to show them or just keep it to urself... Well, I do, at least now.... Usually its our EGO that stops us from showing or telling everything we feel.... EGO is really a bad bad devil thats in every one of us.... I was chatting wif this fren of mine yesterday and she was really against about showing her feelings or emotions and decides to keep it in her heart.... She wants to but she is just not ready to do so.... But like, y, y can't u just show wat u feel... So this is wat actually happened, a small part from the whole conversation....



N says: ur different
N says: u found someone
N says: like me..its different

L says: sayang the someone i found, im not sure if its for real
L says: sometimes, i feel like i over excited bout it
L says: thou i see signs on his side but seriously.....
L says: like i make a big deal out of it.... (seriously i do at times)
L says: but im ready for both.....
L says: gud or bad.....
L says: if gud, im wif him till my end of life
L says: but if bad.... P will be the place i finish my life with
L says: its a horrid feeling when u love someone n u think that person loves u but ur not sure but u still willing to wait which ur not even sure its beneficial for u or its just a total lunatic thing u've ever did in ur entire life
L says: its more of a fake life girl
L says: which is wat im having rite now
L says: i do everything i could to win his heart
L says: but im really not sure if i did win or lose the battle

N says: well...
N says: as long as u din see any negative sign from him

L says: but u nvr know when it turns up
L says: if nvr is gud
L says: wat happens after everything u do, u see the negative sign.....
L says: i would just rather ......

So, yeah... I'm waiting for my prince charming to say something.... But being cinderella sometimes is tat much of a fun when its not like the exact thing tat happens in fairy tale.... Where our prince charming comes, looking for his princess, finds Cinderella and they live happily ever after which is so the f*****g s**t.... Its more of a waiting, waiting, waiting n waiting.....



Its all about the waiting, time, patients and more patients..... Just trying not to end up being a patient myself in some lunatic hospital for all the waiting.... Well, i guess we all just have to patiently wait for the right time to come....

My first day as the real me......

I've been blogging but not an active blogger or a known blogger... I prefered to be an anonymous blogger but after chatting with a best buddy of mine, i realised I should blog here as myself and not someone who no one knows....

I realised at that time, mysteries doesn't work for every situation that we face in life.... Mysteries happens when it has to happen.... Just let time sail thru our life and bring out the best in each and everyone of us......

Therefore, I would firstly like to thank you, chels.... For getting me to be myself.... Yeah, u can now screw me here.... hahahahaha