Realised.......

I realised life,
I realised love,
I realised you,
When i fell in love.

I realised my death,
I realised my mistakes,
I realised how much i'm worth,
When you showed me love.

I realised my after years,
I realised my future,
I realised my status,
When you left me with only love.





P/S: It's for the man I love, whom I still love, whom I will always love, whom will forever I love... You know who you are, baby.......

Right or Wrong????

Life's a path where you make the choice how u want ur life to end.... U choose if you want the good or the bad... The sad ending or the happy ending.... Most of us picks happy ending thinking its good for us.... but then again, not all happy ending really ends happily.... Sometimes, some happy ending stops halfway thru and ends up in misery..... Life's not all about fairy tale that we read in the books when we were young, u know.... That's y they call it Fairy Tale... Its a Tale told in a fantasy world.....

I made some choices in my life which i did regret at times... I wish i could turn back the time and amend my mistakes but yeah! no such thing as time travel, rite... So, i just gotta bare wif it.... huhuhuhu....

N currently, i made another decision in my life.... It's something very personal.... It's something to do with my life..... It's for a man i currently love more than myself.... I decided to keep him happy as long as he is with me, as that is wat i promised him once.... I will only be the cause of his happiness n luckiness.... So being promise, i have to keep up to it and changed myself.... being the same old me, the bubbly, psycho n wacko me!!!

It is not easy as well as its not hard to do it but life must go on..... So, let urself be the cause of happiness instead of someone's tears......

~Love is all about pain that shows you the actual meaning of happiness in life, as life must go on, people you love deserves the rights to go on with their life and be happy as well!!!~

~Luscious Meal at The Garden of Heaven~

Beautiful ambience, lovely music and relaxing environment.... That's wat I have got to say for Garden, this cafe which is right next to or under the excalator for 1Utama LG floor.... The place was so beautiful with the man made's creation.... You would just fall in love by even looking at it.... The waiters were really friendly and mind u, i only say waiters... not even a single waitress there... hehehehe..... i felt like i was walking into this English Garden.....


This was one part of the place.... I felt like i was attending a garden wedding dinner..... There were alt of people and the time when i went there, there was this chinese family who were even celebrating their kid's burfday.....



This was the other side where it was taken from where i was sitting.... That's a man made tree which is like the big bonsai tree that looked very very real.... See, doesn't it look like an English Garden for real....



This is wat we had that nite..... I had Stuffed Chicken Fillet wif French Fries n mixed salad with a dash of balsamic sauce and what my fren had was black pepper chicken wif roasted cube potatoes and garnished wif steamed french beans.... We drank a pot of Hawaiian Mixed Fruit Cocktail Tea.....

The meals very quite big serving and it was tasty.. there were right amount sauce provided and the service was gud, the food came very fast..... Withing 10mins, we got all tat we ordered... The stuffed chicken was quite big and i had tough time finishing it off..... and even the black pepper chicken was big and the peppery taste was there, thick.....

The drinks was more on the sour side but since its the Hawaiian style, u can't complain much cause you don't really know how it taste... hehehe... But i liked the drink as there wasn't just fruits but some flowers were added.... When I asked the waiter, he said its more of a herbal, health drink than to consider it as just another tea.... Its a no sugar drink.....

I will surely recommend my frens to give it a shot and I will definately go there again to try out their other meals... They even have vast varities of local cuisine..... So, those who prefer local food than western or italian cuisine, u can check out this place....

Deciding for yourself......

I was thinking over this morning when i was chatting wif this best gf of mine... She is currently lost wif world of men... So, i was telling her... How much im stuck wif a man whom till now i'm not sure if he is the one or is just me who is dreaming n droooling ooooover him.... He treats me like his gf, cares as a best buddy n shows all his emotions as a hubby.... But what am I to him? I still don know.... Its a question that I yet to find for an answer.... Its pretty killing thou.... Its like a knife right at ur chest pokky pokky but just not gone deep inside yet....

We talk, sweet argue, denials, ignore each other's calls or smses...(wait, its him who does this always) but nvr once the 'L Word' was mentioned... The most was said, 'I miss u' and how he always addresses me as 'dear' in a sweet way..... I don mind but don leave me dangling like this.... Its really not fun at all and u can never find the word fun in it as well.....

And then, there was this one time i spoke to another girl fren of mine and guess wat, she gave me this really bad bad advised i told myself 'i'm sorry but i'm never hearing another advise from u'... She told me to get him spend all the cash he has on me.... I, as a girl should not be spending anything on him... I was like "WTF!!!" this guy is not even sure if he's wif me... If i were to do that, im gonna lose him totally.... and she will be so dead at tat f*****g time.....

Well, i definately going wif wat my heart has to say about.... Damn!!! This is so frustrating giler!!!