Deciding for yourself......

I was thinking over this morning when i was chatting wif this best gf of mine... She is currently lost wif world of men... So, i was telling her... How much im stuck wif a man whom till now i'm not sure if he is the one or is just me who is dreaming n droooling ooooover him.... He treats me like his gf, cares as a best buddy n shows all his emotions as a hubby.... But what am I to him? I still don know.... Its a question that I yet to find for an answer.... Its pretty killing thou.... Its like a knife right at ur chest pokky pokky but just not gone deep inside yet....

We talk, sweet argue, denials, ignore each other's calls or smses...(wait, its him who does this always) but nvr once the 'L Word' was mentioned... The most was said, 'I miss u' and how he always addresses me as 'dear' in a sweet way..... I don mind but don leave me dangling like this.... Its really not fun at all and u can never find the word fun in it as well.....

And then, there was this one time i spoke to another girl fren of mine and guess wat, she gave me this really bad bad advised i told myself 'i'm sorry but i'm never hearing another advise from u'... She told me to get him spend all the cash he has on me.... I, as a girl should not be spending anything on him... I was like "WTF!!!" this guy is not even sure if he's wif me... If i were to do that, im gonna lose him totally.... and she will be so dead at tat f*****g time.....

Well, i definately going wif wat my heart has to say about.... Damn!!! This is so frustrating giler!!!